| if i am your destruction, are you my creation? |


destruction is beautifulthe atmosphere of the room is leisure, with a thick smog of smoke. everyone here is friends, everyone here is destroying each other slowly. i join in, inhaling devastating smoke from the lips of my best friend. destruction is beautiful, and i pull the cough that contains my soul back in, to stop myself from losing myself. i feel more than see you smiling at everyone, and i can only lean my head on her shoulder looking for some kind of escape from the pain playing in my mind.destruction is beautiful
the scratchiness of my throat doesn't go unnoticed, i hack and cough a few times into my hand, closing it and wiping rust colored tears onto my pants. my tee


once i lived without youonce i had a smile on my paper face, drawn on with red lipstick that stretched from ear to ear and bled from the force of gravity. it was the most beautiful smile i've ever had, because it was my eternal smile, but then the fire of [you] came along and burned away my picture.once i lived without you
once i had a heart hidden behind wooden ribs that creaked with old age, carved thin but strong from feeble hands. it turned milky wood into real, growing bones stained in blood. it was the most beautiful color i've ever been, because it was my own, but then [your] termites came and gnawed the wood away.
once i had a light in crystal eyes, reflec
| Skip this pretense and cut straight to dying, But don't beg me to keep your eyes from crying. |


Heroinblood drips from my radial. sweat from my brow and lies from my tongue.Heroin
"im not an addict", i say.
i take off the tie and it comes over me, that. that one more i tried to get all day to make it fucking stop. the headache. the stomachache. the ache.
the ache i feel all the time because im too fucking stupid to begin to comprehend it's origin, at least not for long enough to be able to figure out how to stop it.
without this.
bullets reach for the lowest depths of hell, sinking into the cracks in the floor as they oh so majestically escape my skin.
there's absolutely


Materialism ProloguePeople are so caught up in the here and now. The rotted sewers of Materialism leak their filth onto the crowded streets. The foul stench of greed is everywhere, and people strive to achieve personal gain and personal pleasure. Unrealistic dreams that they once possessed as innocent children are now cast into gutters and sewer drains. Such dreams are considered unworthy of an individual pointing themselves toward success. These precious imaginings, these beautiful hopes of a once youthful and unburdened mind are left behind to wither away like a wilting rose, no longer glamorous to the senses. But in this lies one of mankind's greatest eMaterialism Prologue
heroin.| I'm Suzi. I'm not unique, I'm different. I'm not pretty, but I'm not ugly. I'm not stupid, but I'm no genius. I'm not funny, but I'm not boring. I'm not straight, but I'm not gay. I'm not repetitive, but I don't always try new things. I'm not a grammar nazi, but I don't spell everything wrong. I like weird things, I do weird things, I know weird people and I never have any motivation to do anything. I'm realistic most of the time. I sleep too much and get yelled at for it. Which makes me sleep more. Writing's my passion, Fight Club's the best book ever and you, sir, have just lost the game. I'm horrible at making lists. I'm horrible at a lot of things. I've seen glimpses of what makes life worth living. I've also seen glimpses of what makes dying so glamorous. Long story short: I'm Suzi. Think you can change me? Think again. You think I'm wrapped up in myself? Gorgeous, stop choking on my cellophane. |
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find me a storm where the wild winds blow.
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raphael does photography, too!
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An Irishman has an abiding sense of tragedy that sustains him through temporary bouts of joy.
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It's nobody's business what's in my cup, what's in your cup, what's in their cup. It's your cup, drink it. Fuck you, and whatever was in my cup, I'm going to keep drinking it. Suck my dick, and my cup. - Lil Wayne
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i'm not afraid to die. but i'm afraid to dry./
"Je ne suis pas daccord avec ce que vous dites, mais je me
battrai jusqu? la mort pour que vous ayez le droit de le dire"
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